What's it take to follow your dreams?

Do you know what it takes to follow your dreams?

 COURAGE!!

Think about it...If it were easy, everyone would do it!! Just because it's not easy, doesn't mean it wouldn't be the most amazing experience of your life! There were many things that I didn't do because in some way, shape or form I was scared. Scared because it's not what the world taught me to do! Maybe I won't be good at it? Maybe I won't be able to support myself doing it? And the BIG one, I don't KNOW HOW to do it!! .... One day I just had to release my fears and take a baby step forward!  The thing I learned is that baby steps aren't that scary at all!  It's a small commitment that can create more HOPE and JOY in your life then you can imagine!! It's saying YES to your spirit, the you in side of you that's just desperate for inspiration!!

I'm laughing to myself right now thinking of the movie What About Bob? with Bill Murray, have you seen it? He plays a germ-a-phobe "shut-in" who's a very needy, pretty helpless, and extremely annoying client to his poor therapist.  He's directed to practice "baby steps" to do just about anything... "Baby steps to the car", "baby steps to the sidewalk", "baby steps to open the door"...and to watch him, he seems ridiculous (especially because he says it all to himself out loud)! hehe  I think this vision is coming into my head so strongly right now because in actuality we ALL have things we want in this world that we have a hard time doing or pursuing!  We ALL have a few Bob tendencies, and that's why we continue doing what we're doing even if we're not happy, the safe option, because our FEARS have the control over us instead of the other way around.  And fear can also be cleverly disguised as "being realistic"...we all have bills to pay, it is the reality of this world, but telling yourself that you cannot pay your bills by pursuing your dreams, that's not realistic, that's just putting a limit on yourself that doesn't need to be there. Think outside the box! As a matter of fact, maybe you have to get rid of the box altogether! Okay...Let's just start by saying "Maybe you CAN...." (Baby step, wink wink)

So think of it this way....if you're not pursuing a dream, then you're living FOR your fears and not yourself!  Is that what you want?  Is there something you can take a "baby step" towards right now!  The most important part of dreaming is taking one little itsy-bitsy teeny-weeny BABY step! 

If Bob can do it, so can you!! <3

On a lighter note!!

I wanted to follow up on my last blog post, which is admittedly a SUPER downer :-) , by letting you all in on my amazing life that's only getting better! 

So since that point, with lots of courage, getting to know myself, and faith in my dreams coming true, I've changed my life completely!  

Right now my "work" is being a Theta Healing Practitioner and Life Coach.  I get to help people be their truest selves and have their lives reflect their truths, to find their happiness!  It doesn't feel even one moment like work.  It is my passion...in fact when I'm "working" I really feel like I'm just talking to my friends and helping them feel better.  I always loved doing that anyway...it was my favorite thing to do in my "old life".  

I get to set my own schedule. 
I can help people on phone or Skype so I don't have to be home or in an office to do it.
I am absolutely free to move about the country, or the world, whenever I want!!
I have an amazing relationship with a guy that seems made for me... I can be ME, genuinely, authentically and sincerely and he supports me completely.  Our lives fit together perfectly as his passion takes him around the country ...and I get to go with!! 
We can wake up late and stay up late....
I feel Free...like my life is wholly mine.  I don't answer to anyone and I do only what I love!  
I have plenty of free time. 
I can live where ever I choose! I don't have to fight any traffic if I don't want to...
My vocabulary doesn't include the words Should or Have to any longer. 
I feel refreshed, rested and inspired each day....like I'm making a TRUE difference!
My heart feels open and full...when I think about my life now, I SMILE :-)

If you would have told me 8 years ago that this would be my life, I wouldn't have believed it was even remotely possible!   My current goal is to dream bigger and better!! Now, it's like my life is actually perfectly tailored to me and what I enjoy, and I'm certain it can be even better...My 2015 is all about wanting even more and watching it happen!! So excited...I can feel wonderful things coming my way! Can you tell how frickin excited I am?! Hehe

Your life too can be designed by you...you just have to dare to dream and be open to hearing your hearts desires!!  I can help!! <3
 

Sound familiar?

I FELT TRAPPED...
MISERABLE...
FRUSTRATED...
CONFUSED...
COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY STUCK!

Oh don't get me wrong, I didn't let anyone know how I was feeling.  In fact, I think most of the time I did a pretty good job of keeping this from myself! It was 2007, and I had a plan.... Suffer now, sacrifice myself and do all these "necessary" things that make me completely unhappy, and then eventually, one day, when I've achieved all my goals, I'll be happy!  

I had an excuse for every single decision I'd ever made and why it was necessary to keep going in the same direction, why I couldn't change my mind.  My constant inner dialogue told me over and over the very terrifying reasons why I couldn't change my life. I'd be a failure, I'd be abandoned, I'd lose everything...I HAVE NO CHOICE but to be a victim and keep going. 

At that point, the world seemed so unfair...I'd done everything right!  And by everything, I mean everything that the world tells you that will make you happy....Get your education, get a good job, save your money, have insurance, take calculated business risks, pick a man and sacrifice to make it work, invest in your future and retirement, trade your time to get paid so you can eventually have everything you've ever wanted.

I was doing all of these things, and so unfairly, the world kept knocking me down!  But I didn't give up!  It was just a lesson and I was getting smarter, right?!  If something didn't work as it was "supposed to", I doubted myself.  I must have not done it right.  I  must not have done my "homework" enough and I would get it next time. I must not be worthy of getting that new job or that raise.   These messages from the "powers that be", all the other people in the world, can't possibly be wrong! It must be me... 

I was convinced my failures were deserved, and despite my best efforts to turn things around, things seemed to get worse. I was exhausted all the time.  I had lost all enjoyment in life. My frustration came out as all I took to constantly complaining about my situation.  Talking about it made me feel slightly better, acknowledging my discontent, expressing my feelings, but in the end I was scared to make any REAL change. 

This was my life...and everyday I put on a happy face, an air of success and a determination to make something of myself.  Fake it til you make it, right?!! But that doesn't work if everything in your heart tells you there's just SOMETHING not right!!  It was all a sacrifice because MY HEART WAS NEVER IN IT!  

Does any of this sound familiar?  Does even just a little bit of it resonate with you? Is fear, obligation and expectation running your life too?  If this is you.....it is absolutely possible to CHANGE EVERYTHING!!! 

Don't lose hope...your new life can start today regardless of your fears!  

Stay tuned every week as I plan to tell my story and help everyone I can to gain the peace and freedom I've created in my life.  We ALL can do it...and you deserve it!!